my mind recently

  hi...  it's been a while actually Rara said she's appreciate my mini blog so, i decide to write again today..... Nightmare I suddenly woke up with a chaotic feeling My mind was full of messy movie recaps. my heart was beating fast I thought it was okay, maybe it was just a nightmare But there's no nightmare that I don't remember after waking up. I'm a good reminder. I cast many spells to calm my soul. so many that I almost vomited It didn't work. I thought back to the things that made me feel like this before. What is there? rather than excessive worry  this is more like fear afraid of being alone afraid of being cold Actually, this is not what I meant but in fact, I was indeed alone and cold because I'm in my boarding room with a low air conditioning temperature then I sorted my memories back to my childhood a time when I often had long nightmares it was always long, because I refused to wake up I was too curious about what would happen in my dream withou...

  in my 20 Sincerely, Amyrah.... my teens life was up and down, idk what to say. not really dramatic way, but i can say it was a lot. at least for me. happiness is temporary  " nothing last forever..." - Wildest Dream by Taylor Swift Talk about psycological, moodswing diagnosed cuma alibi. Sebenernya memang bahagia itu waktunya sedikit. Seperti garis finish . hanya satu garis, tapi kamu harus mengitari satu lapangan. Terkadang juga effort yang dikeluarkan tidak sesuai dengan kebahagiaan yang dirasakan dalam waktu yang bisa dibilang singkat. Well ... tidak semua usaha menghianati hasil. Mungkin itu semua tergantung persepsi setiap individu. Namun, kebahagiaan itu berbeda-beda tolak ukurnya. Berbidang-bidang dan berliku juga. Rasanya perlu menghabiskan seluruh hidup buat mencari kebahagiaan. rumit. love is a scam " one heart broke, four hands bloody" - Favorite crime by Oliva Rodrigo Cinta itu datang dan tumbuh dari cara-cara yang tidak terduga. Rasanya kurang ...

“Beautiful hurt’s feeling”   Terima kasih kepada kamu baik laki-laki atau pun perempuan yang sudah berhasil bertahan dari deritanya hati disakiti. Aku ingin berbagi sedikit kisahku.... Bukan. Bukan kisah inspiratif yang bisa mengubah dunia. Tapi dengan adanya ceritaku ini, kalian yang juga merasakan hal yang sama denganku tidak merasa sendirian.  Aku kelahiran 2001. Aku memiliki banyak fase-fase sulit melewati masa remajaku yang bisa dibilang cukup menarik dan menyenangkan. Dalam masa SMA-ku aku tidak menetap di satu sekolah yang sama. Aku selalu saja ada di tempat baru di setiap tahunnya. Hingga akhirnya lulus, kembali di jakarta.  Aku banyak meninggalkan jiwa-jiwa yang berhubungan dekat denganku dengan alasan yang tidak pernah masuk akal atau wajar. Bosan. Ingin mencoba hal baru. Disuruh orang tua. Itu bukanlah alasan yang bisa diterima semua orang ketika aku meninggalkan mereka. Ada tangis dan tawa yang pernah dibagi dan itu tidak menghilang dengan waktu 1 atau 2 har...

"BEAUTIFUL REMINDER TO REMIND YOU FOR LOVE YOURSELF MORE" love something unconditianally makes you feel no pain. it will be feel like disaster if you just hope something that doesn't be cometrue when its have chance to become one. when you have a feeling to someone, we have a feeling to secure them and want to be the one they used to be there in their hardest time.  when you love someone, you can't see lies in their eyes. their eyes just bright so breathtaking. when someone you love leaving, you start checking what is wrong with yourself and feel down. thats okay. but dont you wish to be a part with everyone who will hurt you or break you? when you feel like you not worth it, think how many people that says 'thank you' to you for your help, present, words, compliments, and other things. when you start feel insecure about your body, face, or even voices. remember everything that you've done with that body, face, and voice. is that will happen if you don...

"Asia is a Continent with highest curiosity of other people" everyone are talking about each other, does not value other privacy, and judging everything based on one source. let me tell you why..... based on my perception as a humanbeing who is born, leave, and grow in Asia, i was raising around cultural that has made hundreds or even thousand years ago. People around me try so hard to keep the traditions and stuff. But, are they realized? we leave in new era. with technology and globalization. lets start with patriarchy.  a lot of countries in Asia who recognized as a developed country. no offense, but not for me. yes, the countries are developed. but what about the mindset? are all countries who recognized as a development country is rated based only on economy growth? the point about a country is the people. no matter how big the country is or how many natural wealth that they earn, but if the people can't build a 'good'...

"BEAUTIFUL THOUGHT... WDYT ABOUT TOXIC RELATIONSHIP" 78 dari 100 orang terjebak dalam toxic relationship. Cara mengetahui apakah kita termasuk dari 78 orang tersebut adalah dengan memahami arti Toxic relationship itu sendiri.  Toxic relationship  merujuk pada sebuah hubungan yang ditandai dengan perilaku-perilaku 'beracun' yang merusak fisik maupun emosional diri sendiri maupun pasangan. Jika dalam hubungan yang sehat didominasi oleh kasih sayang, rasa saling menghormati, dan penerimaan , maka  toxic relationship  adalah kebalikannya . Tidak hal ini tidak serta merta hanya antara perempuan dan laki-laki yang menjalin hubungan. Bukan hanya soal itu. Tapi toxic relationship ini juga di di alami dalam keluarga dan pertemanan. Mengapa? karena sejujurnya efek dari toxic relationship ini dirasakan akibat dari perilaku orang-orang disekitar. Untuk itu alangkah baiknya kita tumbuh dan berkembang di circle yang 'sehat'. 1. Keluarga ...